An Irrational Fear of Plastic Bags

We were up at about 3 am for a feeding when Steve noticed the diaper pale was full. As he was shaking out a new plastic garbage bag to put in I remembered something about Zoe. We had a good chuckle at 3 am. You see- when Zoe was a baby she was petrified of shaking plastic bags. Grocery, garbage or otherwise- it terrified her. We never really understood it, but it makes me wonder if Hayden will share in this fear. It is funny how many things we had forgotten about with Zoe. When Steve held Hayden for the first time he looked like a first time Dad- unsure of how to hold him, wondering if he will break. It was precious. It was just us in the delivery room. Since Zoe was an emergency c-section it was only us in the O.R. just then too, but had planned for both Moms to be there. This time I decided not to have any extra people with us, and I wasn't certain how I would feel when it came down to it... you know- If I would miss my mom. I am glad I made that decision. It was so intimate with just us. So personal. Just right for us. Steve was my rock the morning Zoe was born. Her heart rate was dropping with each contraction and they felt it was best to just get her out asap. I was in tears and was so fearful that night but Steve was rock steady- just what I needed. I could see a bit of fear in his eyes this time around too. He starred at the monitor during each and every contraction and paced the room in between. Each time I asked how he was doing he would simply smile and say "just fine". Hayden's heart did drop towards the end but he pulled through like a champ. Afterwards Steven finally fessed up about his worry. He tried so hard not to show it, but I know him. I know how he is.Hayden is a week old today. My little man has settled into our little family just perfectly. He nurses like a pro(and hopefully that stays that way-unlike Zoe), is sleeping all the time, and making his big sister j-e-a-l-o-u-s! I have tried so hard to give her special "Mommy time" through the day, but today I have heard the following "Play with me" " My leg hurts" "My tummy hurts" "Sit with me" "My eye hurts" "Lay with me". Mommy is going a bit bonkers with all this. She loves Hayden and has become a little helicopter with all the hovering she does over him, but at the same time she wants all mommy all the time, and no matter how much extra time I try to spend with her it just isn't enough. Which is kinda funny because I feel like I have been spending more one on one time with her than I have in the recent past. I do however feel like my patience level has increased with this baby and somehow decreased with Zoe for now. We are surviving though. I even had a small amount of time to work on his birth announcements. Stupid me decided to make them rather than just buy them. Oh well.So, we are blissfully living the life of a family of four, and it could not be any better. We do feel our family is complete although we aren't going to permanently stop us from having more just yet- you know in case we change our minds. I must send you a warning...my blog may very well turn into all things baby for a while as I just cannot get enough of his sweet little face. Those teeny tiny fingers and toes, and just the way he smells.

We went to Build a Bear and Zoe made Hayden his very first Teddy Bear. She named him Charlie Bear. I plan to take a photo of Hayden with Charlie Bear each month to show how he grows. We did the same thing with Zoe and it was fun to compare the photos from month to month.